High And Dry

"You'd kill yourself for recognition; kill yourself to never ever stop. You broken another mirror; you're turning into something you are not" - Radiohead, High & Dry.

Seriously. Do not know what i've gotten myself into. Think i might be suffering from a slight mental disorder. And, by that i don't mean crazy psycho kind like laugh and talk to myself every time. However, I admit I do sometimes but still, am definitely not crazy. I repeat myself; slight mental disorder. For me, crazy psycho means not wearing clothes in public or ..... getting mixed up with clothes. I mean. Common, everybody knows how to wear clothes, even my one year old niece does, if they don't, there you go - you've found yourself being/with a nutcase! Just like hobos at most times are confused with their dressing i.e. mistaken their bottoms as their tops or their tops as their bottoms. But I must say, the top being worn as bottom is a cool trend! Anyway. I wonder whether is it normal for homo sapiens aka human beings to develop a tendency of exerting tremendous pressure in themselves that eventually turns into a frequent habit. Google didn't really answer that question. I NEED to know the answer *desperate* and think i have to seek a psychiatrist for that. So yea.. that's the 'slight mental disorder' I'm having.  Smacks me head for causing me great distress.  Great. What a nice way to kick off Melly's 2011 and not to mention, it's not even 2011 yet for crying out loud with the crap that I've gotten into. Sigh. Actually it's kinda not so crappy cos it's like a good crap. By that, i'm referring to a competition and my other new freelance job. YES. An international marketing competition and an illustrator for men's magazine so to speak. What I need now is to have extreme confidence and enthusiasm like how I used to have back then when i wasn't emo melly. I need to be happy melly like before. HAPPY BUBBLY MELLY like x 1000000000000 times.